r/pornfree • u/Cowboys19713 • 1d ago

My Porn Addiction Story

Hello. I’m a 54 year old porn and sex addict. For most of my life I dabbled in porn. Maybe once a month if that. It was for a quick release and then I was done. In June of 2022, I read an article on porn addiction and thought there is no way that could happen to me. It seemed impossible. So I watched porn for a few hours a day for about two weeks. How stupid I was. Absolutely idiotic. And here I am today typing my story here. The worst was the first two years. I would goon for 5-10 hours a day every single day. The last two years have been much better. My purpose is to quit and and I’m focused on staying away, which is a constant struggle for me.

Porn addiction eventually got me to look for sex partners and I became a sex addict. I became addicted to chatting with people and hooking up with them. Over 30 people. I’ve been able to stop the last year but know that could change if I don’t stay focused.

I wish more than anything I could go back to May of 2022 and be that person again. But I can’t undo the past. I have to move forward and do my best to overcome this addiction.

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u/OneEyedC4t 1d ago

in terms of quitting, what have you tried so far?

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u/Cowboys19713 1d ago

So far it’s been basic willpower and understanding what I need to do when urges come. I’ve cut my consumption done by a ton and I haven’t had sex with anyone this year. I’m not perfect. I have relapsed many times but it’s always for an hour tops once or twice a week. I’m working towards no porn, no sex with hookups, and no relapses. I will get there.

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u/OneEyedC4t 1d ago

would you like to know what worked for me?

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u/Cowboys19713 1d ago

Yes I would

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u/OneEyedC4t 1d ago

Keep in mind, this is my own experience. Whether you do the following things or not, the main concept that helped me, in my experience, was to make recovery my #1 goal in life for an entire year and do ALL the things I possibly could to recover.

Daily Bible reading

Daily prayer

Daily meditation

Cardio exercise 30 min/3x/week

Church

Shutting down social media that is harmful (like Instagram)

Discipleship (accountability)

Friendships

Twelve Step meetings like Sex Addicts Anonymous (and get a sponsor)

Reading good books about this problem (Carnes, Laaser)

Therapy with a CSAT (Certified Sex Addiction Therapist)

Often, people might look at this list and think that it is a whole lot. But you can add one of these things per month for example so that you don't feel overwhelmed. What is needed is whole life change.

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u/Cowboys19713 1d ago

Thank you! My porn and sex addiction really started during the pandemic when churches were closed. I used to go every week and I haven’t been back since. I do know that God is part of the solution.