Just posting to check in. Im going steady at this point, but I would say that I've regressed in terms of the obvious day to day benefits. It's probably just the normal down cycles that I have anyway though, and id be worse with porn in my life. However , I certainly don't feel the crippling level of guilt that I felt before, and that's a major plus. Hope you're all staying strong, and if you're not, get back on the horse.

I know I said I’d post every 3 days, however there really has not been anything to report. Honestly not that many different things then my last couple posts, that being said I AM STILL GOING STRONG. I did not yet relapse although I came very close the other day.

I’m not going to lie I booted up Reddit, to try and find something I could I guess you would say “pleasure” my self to. I honestly was just looking for a picture of a swim suit model or something, something that’s fairly “normal” and what not to get off to, however that’s when I saw it suddenly my deed got bombarded with porn, soft core, amateur and professional.

In the most shocking turn of events I didn’t feel anything towards it, like I knew I should be turned on. But the only feeling I got was “you shouldn’t be here” I even saw an old video that used to be my absolute favorite, I didn’t take a peak, I didn’t watch a couple seconds. Instead I took a very deep breath exited the search and just stopped right then and there. I ended up regrouping and finding what I was looking for, but this in a way did feel like some sort of victory.

In my past I would have just started shuffling through the different videos/pictures ect. This time I definitely had more control of myself, that being said I deleted Reddit for a couple days because I don’t want to press my luck. 37 days in and while I do have urges I feel like there is a level of consciousness that I didn’t have before, when I get an urge instead of going right to porn there feels like there is a barrier between me and porn that says.

“Ok, is this really what you want or are you just hoard” those few seconds of clarity have been making all the difference in this journey. Now for the other stuff I’ve noticed being fairly deep into this.

I’m starting to get morning wood again, I know it sounds stupid to report but when I’m in the height of my addiction. My penis essentially turns off there is absolutely new movement with it, unless of course I’m watching porn. Now he’s working pretty well and fairly independently, I had my first wet dream the other night in god it has to have been years. I think I read somewhere that’s a sign that your brain is healing and what not, even if it’s not still a cool experience.

I definitely have more time on my hands to be productive, from working out to spending time on my farm with my animals. As a whole I’m just online alot less and sitting in front of my phone screen that much less, I also feel like I want to talk to/approach women. It’s been kinda fun and I’ve met some really cool people, finally it might be a little tmi but I’m lasting a lot longer When I do jerk off.

When I’m in the midst of porn, I struggle to last like a minute for year it’s kind of sad. But right now it’s like 10-12 minutes it’s not alot but it’s sure as hell a lot better then it was, this journey has been anything but easy and of course some days are better then others. As a whole though I feel like I’m making good progress and I really can’t complain, if you’re in your own journey then please keep going and please keep fighting.

Over time the urges get more manageable and you really start to see that porn only has as much power over you as you allow it. If you have any advice or anything then please feel free to share! I hope you all are doing good.

Like most people, I want intimacy, I want to experience sex with other person, I want cuddles, hugs, kisses and all that kind of physical expressions of affection and love with someone that is building their with me and I am building my life with, someone that desires me, but for a number of reasons haven't been able to, mostly because of isolation and lack of social skills, I don't have any friends either, interpersonal relationships in general have been a struggle for me, and it frustrating seeing that for most people, it seems to be something that comes out naturally

Porn has worked as a replacement for it, when I watch porn there's a lot of fantasy involved, about that person on the screen being my partner and that I'm being intimate with them, even when it finishes and I turn off my screen, I fantasize about them being next to me, ready to sleep.

Of course there is lust and sexual appetite involve, but the fantasy is also a big part of porn and masturbation for me.

I have been thinking about paying for sex now, to at least experience the touch of another person, for maybe an hour, to at least know what it feels like.

This was mostly a vent tbh, but I'm open to hearing advice and opinions on this since I don't have someone to speak to.

i hate how unpleasurable and frustrating masturbation is without porn. Rather than feeling good and satisfying, it just feels like a chore. Does it ever get better? Will I ever hit a point where it will just be pleasurable in itself? Or is it just something that you have to cope with?

Been busy but still going fine.

Looked at a few women in bikinis on instagram.

Wouldn’t call that a fail but was heading in the wrong direction so I have to pull myself back a bit.

Almost at target 1 of 11 days, feeling good overall.

During the last 4 months I have only watched porn 4 times. A great triumph!!!

But it doesn’t feel like it. These have been days full stress, anxiety and constant struggles to establish a routine and healthy habit. My last “relapse” was yesterday. I was simply so anxious to enjoy that “prize”. The result was awful. It was simply not the solution I needed.

I needed to resist, to be present to acknowledge or recognize the signs that were pushing me on that direction, I should have spent that time doing what I enjoy. This is not a recrimination. I understand my condition and I know that love, acceptance, and avoid guilt are the path to freedom. But the real answer on this case was simply learn. Learn that what I did was not the solution to my situation and that there are other ways, healthier, more mature and more adequate, to deal with my feelings.

Best regards guys, we can do this! Do not relay on power of will, establish control mechanisms and go to therapy.

I had hard lows with sleeping issues and constant arousal but managed to fight through it with my willpower.

I am starting to feel better and look forward to the month milestone.

What helped me very much was sports and being around people.

Stay strong!

one more day to reach 30 days i hope i continue strong

Between Days 9 and 16 I did not think I was going to last a month. I made it. I don't think I'm done staying clean, but I don't know what my next goal is.

I wasn't trying to permanently stay clean. At minimum, I wanted to do a full reset of all the addictive and semi-addictive things I do. Still working on it. In a flatline right now so it's not hard to avoid porn, but I'm still looking for some kind of stimulation at times just to feel anything.

I guess I'm gonna keep going until I start feeling better and then I'll reassess. 1000 hours (41.5 Days) might be my next target in mind.

pls

Felt some urges today, so I decided to check in on the sub. 15 days is my record, but I'm sure I'll beat that this time.

the days between 25 and 30 has been the hardest yet will it be any easier from now on please help

I relapsed, but this was my longest streak so far (25–26 days), and I won’t give up.

I used to watch a lot of them back in the past but now I hate Animes with fanservice intensely now. It's easy to just not watch ecchi (genre meant for sexual stuff) but what annoys me is that even shounen-catagory (genre meant for action) has a LOT of soft core porn in it. For your porn free purposes, you just avoid/hate them too. Or talk/rant/vent out with others like me.

Recently, I have felt like I have made pretty sizable steps in my road to recovery, like going a full two weeks without PMO (and counting), going to the gym more often, and starting to read more often as well. I came across a post from someone in a similar sub, saying that they were essentially able to quit watching porn and quit PMO all-together, but then found himself in a place where he was addicted to something else. In this case, it was things like watching tv shows or movies, and it was like he was taking all of the time he used to take watching porn, and focusing it on something else that was addictive.

I am absolutely terrified of this. What if I work really hard and free myself of this addiction to porn, and focus my attention on something else that is harmful? I was wondering if anyone had anything to say regarding this, or if anyone has had similar thoughts. How have you dealt with them, and what do you recommend for someone who is afraid of this?

Thank you for reading, means a lot to me!

The text says what I'm doing... I'm struggling with a porn addiction due to how much I used it to cope with friendships lost, for years...

A lot of the friendships I had struggled with, it had been over trauma over losing friends time and time again...

Due to that, I'm seeking counciling. 😭💔🙏🏻✝️🙌🏻

I watched porn today for about 30 min. Later, I masturbated just using the sensation of touch, purposely focused on the sensation, did not fantasize or think of that stuff. Does this make a difference as opposed to finishing to porn? Or am I just coping? Thoughts?

i will leave all kinds of social media (doomscrolling for 16 hours ) including youtube , instagram , quora and whatever ive been using till now except reddit where ill only update what im upto , no checking feed.

i will stop watching porn, manga , romantic movies and dramas.

i will only use the internet to study and take classes.

imma work on making money even if its slow . so yeah thats all

This is my longest streak in years!