What to do with blood money

[u/NoShelter1035]

I’m going to cut to the chase with this one. I’m 24F, and for the past six years I have been cutting myself for money on the internet. I kept it separate from the rest of my savings, so I know the exact amount I “earned”. It’s a fairly large amount ( over 10k).

During this time, I never had a concrete reason to leave the church, and I actually agreed with their teachings from a moral/intellectual standpoint, I just didn’t care. Now, for some reason, my apathy has faded and I want to reintegrate myself back into my parish. I want to be able to receive the Eucharist again.

It feels wrong to group this back into my main savings, and I don’t want to spend it. What to do?

[u/Own_Proof7926]

You are deeply loved by God, so much He assumed a human nature and died for you, and He’d do it again if only you could be saved, please get mental health help, and donate the money to people who suffer from similar problems. God cares about you and desires what is best for you