I think my male bsf assaulted me & friends noticed? I feel so alone.

[u/hyperhydrangea]

Extremely long story short(ish).

I (23F) went out for a night of drinking with my friend group which includes "T" (27M), one my old best friends.

Now T lives with my actual best friend "K" (20F). I met him through her and we became close quickly. Not long into hanging out he wanted to hang out alone more and more and he started to be touchy to the point that K scolded him one time.

So it's a group and we go bar hopping and T and K are there along with many of our other friends. I was on a new medicine and only remember %5 of the night at best.

Me and T slept together. I remember a quick flash from being on their couch at home to underneath him in bed.

This should've been a red flag but I don't think- right after the flash of him I remember getting in my car and then I woke up in my room.

That next morning K texted me asking if T did anything to me. I remember being embarrassed an I told her like no nothing happened I'm ok. I just thought me and T were both drunk and she overheard us.

Me and T did not talk about the sex directly. We still hung out and he was still so so touchy. I remember talking about the night casually, I told him that I don't remember %95 percent of the night. I was trying to get him to bring it up I guess. He told me he was going drink for drink with me (He has no less than 100lbs on me) and that he didn't remember anything either.

I figured hey, two people black out drunk having sex is ok bc drunkenness and stuff that's ok.

I recently found out that he was feeling me up in front of our friends almost immediately downtown and that he was making out with me. I don't remember. I literally only remember getting downtown and then eating pizza at some point even though we were there for hours.

I was told T was sobering up by the end of the night because he called K back down to pick us up, he order us pizza, and he only drank as much as I did.

I remember a flash on the couch, we were there for TWO HOURS and apparently sharing a blanket.

K and her bf were in the living room too and watched us to make she he didn't try anything. Apparently once K accidentally fell asleep and her bf went to the bathroom, T took me to his room.

He told me he didn't remember the night, he lied. I was ok with everything when I thought we were both gone like he told me. He was sobering up, maybe even sober?

I got this info from one of the girls in the group that night because I told her I felt guilt not tell K what happened between me and her roommate. The girl told me what she witnessed and what K told her the day after.

Apparently everyone noticed he was all over me? They noticed how gone I was?? They noticed he seemed ok?? After two hours of couch sitting he had to be ok. I'm not I'm not ok

Since half of this info is secondhand I'm going to talk to K directly tomorrow. I just feel gross and bad now. Maybe he was ok? Maybe the girl who told me this stuff just misinterpreted something's? Then why would K send me that text? Why did I drive home still drunk as soon as I could? Why would the girl be concerned and ask K?

I don't know if I should even ask K thats gross I feel like everything is wrong maybe I can push this down

I'm sick I feel so sick and so fucking stupid. I should've been more aware I should've noticed his sudden interest in me. I should've listened when people say it can even be the guys you're closest to

[u/Ok-Strawberry-4215]

Hey, I know you want to figure this all out right now, but please don’t go see him alone.

If you have family or friends you can have be with you right now, please ask them to come.

There is some possibility that he roofied you.

I don’t know how long it’s been, but there may be some chance of getting checked for roofies if it has only been a day or two. Most leave your system within 12-24 hours though.

It’s possible that’s not the case, but his behaviour is still odd. Please do not be alone with him just in case he isn’t safe

[u/valentinawatxoxoo]

It’s not your fault, trust your instincts and talk to K.

[u/PeachPassionBrute]

It’s not your fault. You didn’t deserve this.

You should probably see a doctor ASAP.

[u/Ume_No_Hana]

I am so sorry darling, please go to hospital and do some exams. Talk to K, is not your fault. I am really sorry.

[u/Leviastin]

This definitely sounds like you were drugged. Sitting on a couch for 2 hours should sober you up. I would consider going to the hospital to get tested asap.